i know the fact that if i completely become honest about how i feel or how i think, i'd lose many things, honesty is brutally real and such a scary thing sometimes. i usually try to stand in a neutral position so that i don't have to show off my stupidity, or i just hate (or i'm just scared) to be judged that i'm so wrong.
all i wanted was stability that i could completely believe in, but i have no control over anything really, and my ego just keeps bringing so much frustration in my damn life.