my awesome friend and also a amazingly talented writer Nagisa gave me this book called "life after god" by Douglas Coupland, and i've been reading it when i get on the train to go to work. only a little by little though, so that i can keep this precious time with this book longer. all the chapters in the book, i can connect to my experience, what happened to me and what i've been actually building up in my life.

"...And we're changed souls; we don't look at things the same way anymore. for there was once a time we expected the worst. but then the worst happened, did it not? and so we will never be surprised ever again."